The Root of All Evil
In one day, four people have suggested that my presence in their life has caused them to:
~ gain weight
~ not have holiday parties
~ lose friendships
~ act out in irrational ways
~ become bad role models for their children
~ chuck their belief in the goodness of people
~ lose productivity at work
~ ignore responsibility
~ say hurtful things out of fear
~ troll craigslist
~ drink too much
FOUR PEOPLE.
None of these people outright blamed me, I must confess, but it was strongly suggested. The wording made it clear that yes, they are adults and are ultimately responsible. But also that without me, there IS no problem.
It has also been suggested that as a mother, I fall short.
Am I that fucking bad for everyone? The CONSENSUS says yes. I am.
I have never learned to love myself and I realized today that maybe it’s because there is not a lot to love.
The lesson is clear, give others what they need and stuff the rest down. No one had problems until I started living.
Posted by Melissa on November 28th, 2006 under Melancholia